roxy culver
10-23-2010, 11:42 PM
This happened more than a week ago but I needed some time, time to spend with my birds and make sure they all know I love them. Especially Mudflap, if anyone is hurting as much as I am right now it's him. On top of not feeling 100% he is now alone. Last Thursday while I was out wedding dress hunting with one of my friends the hubby called me. He had come in from the garage to find Nips and Mudflap in a corner, Nips dead and Mudflap refusing to leave her side. She never showed any signs of being sick at all, not once. I watched her because she's so small I was afraid laying eggs would take a lot out of her, but she was totally ok. We didn't do anything different, didn't change anything in her routine. And she acted like there was nothing wrong with her.:confused:
I couldn't bury her. I could barely touch her. My hubby told me she knew I loved her but I just felt horrible. She only wanted love, she chased Snowball for months trying to get his attention and then managed to get Mudflaps'. He's a sweetheart, likes everyone and doesn't get mean or grumpy. Even when I was giving him his antibiotic shots he wanted scritches afterwards. So he was perfect for my skittish baby:love:.
Let me tell you a little bit about her. I spent six months admiring her before buying her. She was in a cage with two other birds, both bigger than her, with only half a tail and a pretty shoddy wing clipping. She was skittish but sweet:rolleyes:. She loved showers, loved getting scritches in the shower, was actually the calmest under the water. She loved sitting with Mudflap and preening him. They had tried to raise a family but Mudflap was a messy feeder:blush: and this caused issues in the nest box. I was going to hold her back until next April to let her try again. Now she'll never get that chance. The vet said Mudflap might have a general infection but why would he be ok and she wouldn't? It doesn't make any sense but I know I can't dwell on it. I thought about an autopsy but Hubby said they're too expensive so taking Mudflap to the vet was my next best bet. But nothing will replace my girl, nothing at all. This may sound crazy but I worry about the girls more than the boys and it hurts more when something happens to them. I just miss my girl and I wanted to share her.
I couldn't bury her. I could barely touch her. My hubby told me she knew I loved her but I just felt horrible. She only wanted love, she chased Snowball for months trying to get his attention and then managed to get Mudflaps'. He's a sweetheart, likes everyone and doesn't get mean or grumpy. Even when I was giving him his antibiotic shots he wanted scritches afterwards. So he was perfect for my skittish baby:love:.
Let me tell you a little bit about her. I spent six months admiring her before buying her. She was in a cage with two other birds, both bigger than her, with only half a tail and a pretty shoddy wing clipping. She was skittish but sweet:rolleyes:. She loved showers, loved getting scritches in the shower, was actually the calmest under the water. She loved sitting with Mudflap and preening him. They had tried to raise a family but Mudflap was a messy feeder:blush: and this caused issues in the nest box. I was going to hold her back until next April to let her try again. Now she'll never get that chance. The vet said Mudflap might have a general infection but why would he be ok and she wouldn't? It doesn't make any sense but I know I can't dwell on it. I thought about an autopsy but Hubby said they're too expensive so taking Mudflap to the vet was my next best bet. But nothing will replace my girl, nothing at all. This may sound crazy but I worry about the girls more than the boys and it hurts more when something happens to them. I just miss my girl and I wanted to share her.