Goodbye my baby Kiba

[nkeith2]

</3 Well this morning we found my very special baby Kiba lying on the bottom of the cage. She had just been to the vet yesterday for her new anti-biotic since the Baytril wasn't effective on her like it was on the others. She was skinny, but still eating formula several times a day and seemed like she was going to make it last night. It is just so sudden and all I want to do is hug her and tell her how much I love her like I do every morning.
I am honestly beside myself since this bird was much more than just a pet, she was like my daughter and I am having the worst time with this. Don't get me wrong, I love my other birds, but she was just special. She would cuddle and sit with me all day and listen to me about anything. Plus, she never got annoyed or agitated with me at all and we just had an amazing connection that I don't have with any other animals. Anyways, I might not be on here for a while since it hurts very badly but please only post re-assuring comments since I really can't handle anything else :cry:

[roxy culver]

O I'm so sorry for your loss...this is just not our year huh? But she knew you loved her and that's all that's most important! Fly high little Kiba!:angel:

[lperry82]

Im so sorry for your loss :(

[Woodstock]

I share in your grief Keith. From my own personal experience I understand how you feel.

[ClementinesCage]

Oh, I am so so so sorry :(

[nkeith2]

Thank you all for such nice comments, I appreciate the support.

@ Roxy, yeah, I don't think this is our year at all, but like you said, at least she knew how much I loved her

Oh, and to everyone here, feel free to call me Nicki

[ClementinesCage]

Nicki, my heart is breaking for you, but I'm glad that you got to know such a wonderful bird. If it would make you feel better to share some memories, please feel free to.

- Liz

[geenz]

Oh dear, I'm so sorry for your loss, I can't imagine not having my two either :(

[xoxsarahxox]

I am sorry for your loss Nicki:(

[roxy culver]

Nicki, I look at it this way...I just lost Hopscotch this week as well. But this is how I look at it...at least I had that time with him. In his last days he was happy and loved and spoiled and he knew it too. You gave her the best life possible. If you want to share some memories please do. We would all love to hear them.

[Lulu The Tiel]

I am so sorry for your loss, Nicki. :( You had your very special time with her and those are the memories you cherish.

[nkeith2]

Again, thank you all for such wonderful comments, it has helped me feel a lot better. Plus now, I have finally gotten over the hurt and know she is in a wonderful place where she is free from pain.

As for memories, I still remember when we grabbed her from the nestbox at 2 weeks old and how she instantly bonded to me. Everywhere I went, she would be running right behind me, even before she could fly. Once she was able to fly, she still didn't like to because she would prefer to sit on my shoulders and just preen my hair. I would always grab her, hug her, and kiss her constantly and she would never ever get bratty or bitey with me at all (like all of our other birds). Even when she was sick, we left her on the bed while we went to go check on some food in the oven and she ended up jumping off the bed and walking halfway to where we were. The bond I had with her was so special, I can't even begin to describe it. It is almost like our souls were bonded in a mother to child kind of way, and I don't usually think like that so it is huge to me to think that way. That is why it hurt so much and still does at times during the day. I do know now that she is in a wonderful place with her gran-dad Storm and my own father to watch over her and care for her. That is what is allowing me to live on, and realize that life moves on and comes in new forms <3

As for something strange, last night before we went to sleep, we found an egg in the middle of Tiki & Eva's breeding cage and Eva didn't act at all like she wanted to have another egg. Plus, Eva has never ever put an egg outside of her nesting box so that made it stranger. I was very shocked considering this happened less that 24 hours after Kiba had passed on so we put it in their nestbox and they started laying constantly on the eggs today. Maybe Kiba sent a little surprise our way to help us cope with the situation, I really don't know ???

[lperry82]

awww bless she sounds wonderful and maybe she did leave you a surprise to help you cope better, i believe miracles do happen.

[Injood]

aaaaaaaawwwwwwwwww im gonna cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy i know exactly how u feeel :( well shes no longer suffering now and she is in cockatiel heaven <3 *hugs & kisses*

[roxy culver]

Sounds like this is one of those silver lining situations, one life is taken while another is given. Maybe Storm needed a friend and it was decided that you could let her go for him, who knows why these things happen but she sure was special!

[littletiel]

I am very sorry for your loss.
I am sure she is in heaven now...

[nkeith2]

Again, thank you all for such awesome comments, I feel really blessed to have such nice people be able to talk to me about these situations, even if it is over the internet :]

Today was rough at times because I kept remembering how she would crawl over to my face and just fluff up like she was hugging me. Oh, and right before I went to sleep on Friday night, when I said I loved her, she actually chirped back to me and it was the first chirp she had done for a long time. Even though they brings tears, they are really nice memories to have of her <3

[roxy culver]

Cherish them...I was lucky enough to get Hopscotch's whistle on my phone...its my ringtone. Memories are important, its what keeps them alive for us.

[Belinda]

very sorry to see you lost your baby Nicki... we develop such attachments don't we. I'd be devastated if I lost mine, just letting you know that we know they are much more than just pets... take care

[leeisme]

I'm so sorry Nicki :(

[nkeith2]

Thank you all for your support at this time. I really appreciate all the love and caring I have experienced on this site.

It still is hard at times, like any grieving can be, but I am getting through it and I know she is my little angel now <3

[TRose]

My baby passed away on the 14th as well... he was a member of our family and went where we did... he also followed us around. I know how you feel. It is so hard to think of those memories but it is so nice to have them :). She seemed like a sweet bird.