i still miss my babies..

[fantasi2424]

hello.. i just don't feel fine.. reading all these stories about tiels we all lost.. two years ago i lost my Andy, a heavy pied tiel who was always flying and sitting on my head, he loved chewing my hair but he didn't want me to catch him, he used to come over me when he wanted, he was answering when i called him but he got sick when vet had him... 2 months he was fighting with death.. until he passed out.. one year later i lost two tiels Rena (Andy's wife) and Any (Andy's friend) from a desease and i almost loose more.. these two died in my hands.. and before one month i lost Bya, a 8-9 year old budgie i adopted last january from someone who didn't care for her, my new vet told me that she was overweight and old, there was nothing i could do..

this spring we still faced another desease from a bacteria, some of tiels had swollen eyes, but thanks my new vet they all recovered...
but i miss my babies, and i think about them often and everytime something bad happens even something small i'm in panic that i will loose my other tiels too, i love each of them so much and i just feel that everything i do is never enough, my vet (which is 4-8 hours away, he is one of the best i could find in my country) told me that he never saw someone takes care of his/ her tiels so well.. but when something happens i feel useless even when my tiels support me and wait me patiently to take care of them and they take their medecine when they have to.. i can't stop fearing death, i can't stop thinking that the next morning i may see that someone is sick and when i see that they look at me like i'm the "god" i feel even weaker because the truth is that we can't always find solution to everything, and i don't want this to happen again... :(

[lperry82]

Im so sorry for your losses :( I hope you have many more years to come with them

[lovelyolivia]

I don't think it matters whether you lose your fids by death or even by selling them, or re-homing them. Tiels have a way of touching your heart:love: and I really don't think the loss of them ever leaves us. I share the same feelings you do!! One thing I do know, I will never be sorry that I shared my life with the tiels that are no longer with me, and I know you feel the same!! We can be very thankful for the MEMORIES we have of them!!

[Ferg1985]

I think we can all relate to how you feel..

All I can say is, (easier said than done I know) embrace each day with your tiels, love them like it's their last (but that's not to say live in fear of losing them). On Monday I lost my nearly 15yr old 'tiel, Wesley.. it's been a real struggle coming to terms with it - mainly because he was the only 'tiel we've had (and likely ever will have) who we had from an egg. Yet it brings me a lot of comfort to know that each day of those 15 years (give or take a few when I was away) we had lengthy chats, tickles, whistled together and played and I know he loved every day of it (and so did I).

'Tiels are like every other aspect of life, you can't take it for granted and you can't see what's coming.. so don't try too. :) Hope all goes well for you and your animals

[TRose]

Yeah, I agree with what the others are saying. I just don't think you can really ever get over it... but I think that remembering the good times with them help. My bird passed away 2 months ago and I still think of him and miss him everyday. It is really hard not to question if I should have done something different (he passed away after a routine check with a vet that I do not think really knew what they were doing). I had 16 wonderful years with him and I am trying to concentrate on remembering the good times. It is also hard to move on with other birds but I am sure you are doing everything you can... and adopting birds that may not otherwise have a home is great. Not everyone would adopt older birds but I am sure they enjoy spending the time they have left with someone that cares about them. Just try to remember the nice things about each bird and try not to dwell on if you could have done anything differently.

[RookieBlue]

I'm so terribly sorry to hear this! It sounds like you have really dealt with a lot of loss in your birdie history. :(

Honestly, no words can really mend wounds, only time and patience. Unfortunately, many humans don't feel they have much patience, especially when the pain can be so horribly brutal. :( Just know that each of those little birdies knew you were doing them such a great favor, just by sharing your life with them, and that they are all waiting for you. When your time comes, you'll be reunited with all that you have lost.

I, myself, only have one bird. A 5 year old parrotlet I rescued 3 months ago, named Lola. She's my first bird, and I truly couldn't imagine losing her. There's just something about them that touches your heart and makes them almost seem like your pride and joy of life. I hope you find this happiness with other birdies that you share your life with.

Big hugs and hopes for a full recovery,
Keep smiling, even when the path is rough. :]