Very sad about my little boy
Just wanted to post cause I'm feeling really sad and I don't think there is anything I can do to help my Zephyr. He is 12 years old and I love him so much. Just before Christmas he started limping so I took him to the vet. Initially they thought it might be a sprain and put him on pain relief in his water for 2 weeks. Nothing changed and then a new vet arrived. He decided to xray and this revealed that Zephyr had damaged his knee quite badly but there was hope it would heal. It could have been the result of crashing after a fright he got when someone let off some random fireworks a few weeks before the limping started or it could have been something else. Anyway the vet wanted to give him pain relief orally which I proceeded to administer twice a day and then once a day for 2 and a half months. Zephyr did improve, but the limp continued. All this time I gave him extra cage time, wrapped his perches, put everything lower in the cage etc etc to try and help him rest the knee. I asked the vet if the process of orally medicating might make things worse ie having to catch him which was terrible at the start because he tried everything to get away, the stress and so on. The vet didnt think so and he advised continuing to medicate. Zephyr has recently had another xray and the knee is really bad with bone spurs, a floating piece of bone and calcification indicating that it wont improve. The vet says we will need to provide pain relief for the rest of Zephyr's life and check regularly for damage to kidneys. Once this occurs he will need to be euthenaised although this may be many years in the future. I feel absolutely gutted by this news and wonder is it my fault because I couldn't catch him to medicate and he might have made his knee worse jumping around the cage and how am I ever going to really know if he is in continual pain since they are prey animals and hide it. Obviously I will do my best, but what if despite everything we do, he's in pain every day for 10 years. This feels like a death sentence the only question is whether it will be fast or slow and how much pain will he suffer. Sorry to be so negative. Hoping some of you might understand.